Remembering Freddie Mercury's final public appearance at the 1990 Brit Awards
23 November 2021, 14:35
February 18, 1990 proved to be an emotional day for many reasons.
Privately, the other members of Queen were aware that their enigmatic bandmate and friend was gravely ill, but this was not public knowledge at the time.
Rumours about Freddie's health had been around for years, particularly in tabloids such as The Sun, who claimed he had been tested for HIV/AIDS as early as 1986.
Fans were concerned about Freddie due to their lack of tour to support their 1989 album The Miracle, though Brian May later said that even they didn't know about how ill Freddie was for years.
"We didn’t know actually what was wrong for a very long time," said May. "We never talked about it and it was a sort of unwritten law that we didn’t, because Freddie didn’t want to.
"He just told us that he wasn’t up to doing tours, and that’s as far as it went. Gradually, I suppose in the last year and a bit, it became obvious what the problem was, or at least fairly obvious. We didn’t know for sure."
It would prove to be Freddie's final public appearance, as he leaned in briefly into the microphone to say: "Thank you ... goodnight."
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Freddie kept his privacy for the rest of his life, until November 22, 1991, when he confirmed his diagnosis with an official statement. Just over a day later, he passed away.
(Below: The last known pictures of Freddie Mercury shot in the garden at Garden Lodge, not long before his death in November 1991)
A friend of Freddie Mercury, former Daily Express journalist David Wigg, has given a new interview revealing more about why the Queen singer kept his diagnosis a secret for so long.
Speaking as part of a new BBC documentary, Freddie Mercury: A Life in Ten Pictures, Wigg said he interviewed Mercury in September 1987 and discussed his illness 'off the record'.
David said: "I noticed he had lost weight and he had a mark on his cheek that was apparently one of those marks (Kaposi’s sarcoma) you can get when you get HIV."
Freddie said: "I have almost become a nun. I thought sex was very important to me and I lived for sex and now I’ve completely gone the other way It’s frightened me to death. I’ve stopped having sex."
When David pressed the Queen star, he said that Freddie asked to speak candidly: "David this is very difficult," he reportedly said: "I will tell you as a friend but you have to promise you will not put this in our article."
David then revealed in his interview: "So I said, 'Right, you are saying to me you have had a test?' (And Freddie said) 'Yes. And I am HIV.'"
The journalist then went on to add: "The secret had to be kept because he was still hoping that there could still be some kind of a cure or the drugs he was taking for this illness would help him get through it.
"He put on a brave act to all of his friends but inwardly," David said, adding: "He must have been very scared, there is a time bomb about to go off if you don’t get a cure, isn’t there?"
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Elton John previously spoke of Freddie Mercury's incredible spirit right up until his death.
"He was too frail to get out of bed, he was losing his sight, his body was covered in Karposi’s sarcoma lesions, and yet he was still definitely Freddie, gossiping away, completely outrageous," Elton revealed.
"(Freddie would say) ‘Have you heard Mrs Bowie’s new record, dear? What does she think she’s doing?'
"I couldn’t work out whether he didn’t realise how close to death he was or if he knew perfectly well but was determined not to let what was happening to him stop him being himself," Elton John said.
"Either way I thought he was incredible."